Well, my plans to work on short stories got side tracked, in favor of writing a collaborative semi-fanfic /crossover in a role-playing style with a friend of mine. But I think over all it's been a good thing.
I'm treating it like exercise in just relaxing and letting myself have fun in my writing, which I don't do near enough if I'm being honest. It's much too easy to get wrapped up in how I should write; in the plotting and themes and character arcs, instead of just writing and letting it out.
Through this little fic I've been working on(which really isn't so little, my share of it being about 29k so far) I've been relearning to love writing, eager to start every morning and disappointed when I have to stop for the night. Even when I'm literally falling asleep at my computer. Sleep is a pesky and unfortunately necessary thing, interrupting my writing time and other more interesting things I could be doing!
And yes, I have become one of those role-playing, character-pairing-shipping, fan-ficing, fan-arting, squeeing, and feels-flailing sorts you've likely heard about. Especially with my own characters and those of my friends. And I feel no shame. XD (<-- that's a laugh, if you don't already know) We might even share our little story once we're done. We'll see how it turns out.
The worst part of it all has been that I seem to have given myself tendinitis or something in my right wrist(which might or might not have something to do with the aforementioned flailing). So instead of resting it like any sensible person, here I am still typing away with it wrapped up in stretchy athletes bandaging stuff. >_> Yeah, I really should probably not be doing this. But words! It feels good to love writing again, for it to feel like a joy and something to be anticipated, after several dry months of it depressing me, because I could not get things how I wanted. I still have my moments, but that is to be expected. I'm still me and still a bit too perfectionistic and self-critical for it to last forever. But I intend to enjoy it while it lasts!
Besides, I only have another 11k before I've reached the word count goal I made for this Camp Nanowrimo. I can't let a little tendinitis get in my way! (on the other hand, ow)
And if this post sounds a bit more... laid back, than I usually write, that's because I'm trying to be a bit more 'me'. I've always had troubles and doubts about how much of me I'm 'allowed' to be online and on my blog if I still want to be 'professional'. Whatever that is. But I figure, what is the point if I can't enjoy what I do, be open about myself and my writing, and make some new friends along the way?
Anyway, I hope you've enjoyed reading about my senselessness and have a good day!